evolving

books and dvds

2009-06-10T20:21:00.000-07:00

mood : elevated
listening to : katie herzig, wish you well

Exams are finally over! HORRAAAYYY !!

Tapi pas beres gw jadi bingung mau ngapain di rumah. RRrrrrrr kriikk kriik
Gw mencoba ngisi waktu dengan baca buku (betapa intelektualnya gw, ga bisa lepas dari membaca.. hmm), sekarang lagi baca bukunya Kazuo Ishiguro, Never Let Me Go.
Kata si kakak sih bagus, let see..tp ya problem gw dalam membaca literatur inggris adalah LAMA BERESNYA. Tunggu aja reviewnyaa (yg gw yakin ga akan pernah beres).

Selain dengan baca buku, gw juga menyibukkan diri dengan DVD. Kamaren gw udah rampok Movie Room. Tapi berhubung gw ga boker duit , gw beli dvd-nya juga in moderation, cuman beli 15 biji. Some of them : Yes Man , Friday the 13th, latest season of The Office, 1st season of United States Of Tara and of course my favourite doctor, dr. House. Tadinya mau beli 30 Rock juga, tapi ga punya duiiiittt.. next time deh.

Tadi malem gw udah nonton Yes Man , which is fucking hillarious !! I love Jim Carrey !

Gw selalu amazed sama cara dia bikin ekspresi-ekspresi aneh yg gw ga yakin bisa dilakuin sm orang normal (kalo dia emang ga normal, soalnya mukanya kaya dari karet gitu. nyooy-nyooooyyy).
Selain lucu, filmnya juga meaningful , seriously gw belajar banyak dari film itu.
Gw belajar untuk ngambil semua kesempatan yg disodorin sm hidup di depan mata gw, when most of the time i turned them down. I undersatand now, you only live once, and maybe those chances won't come arouynd anymore, maybe those chances will lead you to something amazing.

Ok then, i really need to end this. My brother asked me to help him making the abstract of his poster presentation, which is about Leukemia and the psychological changes seen on the patient.
byee! ;) -wish him luck!

the pre-exam playlist

2009-06-02T05:28:00.000-07:00

I have an exam tomorrow, and yet i'm blogging .
I'm stressed therefore I blog. My new philosophy, i believe that sharing things may make you feel better.

I'm gonna start this with complaining about my life, you can skip this part.
Why do i have such an adverse reaction to stress? from menstrual cycle abnormality, gastritis, neck and shoulder pain, and now, dermatitis. WTF ? can't i just cope with all this tension without having any bodily symptoms ? aggh.

Ok then,I've been sitting in this chair for almost six hours now, reading slides from lectures. And instead of reading the slides and carefully remember every complexity in every detail in that slides, i paid more attention to songs played by the iTunes. smart.
So, i was thinking why don't i share my music, that way i wouldn't feel like i'm wasting my time being a stupid head. hehe.
here we go:
Metric -Fantasies
I'm a fan of Metric, yet i didn't know that they have a new album. haha. It was out on April something. Great band, great music. Sounds like YYYs, but different. go figure.I recommend : Please I'm Alive and Sick Muse.

Ingrid Michaelson - All Love
I think this is her new single, i'm not really sure though. My brother downloaded this one. I only have one song, All Love. Great song, playing it over and over again. haha. Just like her other songs, it's catchy and fun.

Katie Herzig - Apple Tree
I love her voice. and her songs of course. ;) Old album, heard them first time like exactly a year ago, and still loving it till now.

huffh. that's all, my company during this harsh state of mind, the stress.
Enjoy, hope you'll like them the way i do.
Gotta back to the endless powerpoint slides. huffh. Bye now!

mood: slightly lifted

post SOCA

2009-05-30T18:58:00.000-07:00

morning, sunshine! :)
it's my favorite phrase for a morning energy booster , works every time. TRUST ME IT WORKS.

Okay then, I had my SOCA on monday (may 25th), and it was a hell of experience! Oh yes, I LOVE SOCA. I cried my eyes out that day. I got a good mark though, but I'm not satisfied with my performance that day, shiit!. Feel so stupid, and indeed it was a trainwreck. :(( EMBERASSING! Maybe the examiner had a concussion before, it's possible, considering how i performed that day and still passed the exam.
Anyway, The scariest thing has passed, the fear that i would srcrew up big time. Yes I screwed up, but not BIG time. I'm gratefull for what i got. ;) maybe i'm not satisfied for how i performed, but not the result.
Satisfactory is a scary word. When you satisfied , you forget how to move on. It's a comfort zone. I'm keeping my self motivated with this "mind-trick". Persue the best , and keep the best as an imaginary line. Something that keep moving, something to move forward ;)

the fear ~sigh

2009-05-01T06:47:00.001-07:00

huff. my stomach is REALLY REALLY hurt :'( .
i don't know why, maybe my fingernails are just too long and as you may have known it harbors a lot of germs, or.. it's my bad habit that cause all off this. I rarely eat breakfast, or lunch ( i know, you must be guessing how come i survive, i don't really know myself), it must be my gastritis then.
The blame is on me, for not taking my body seriously. poor stomach, get well soon. i miss you.

Ok then, i'll have my exams on 25th of May, the SOOCA, the one that scares me the most.
It stands for .... yehh, i don't really know what it stands for!! hahhaha. but it's not important. Let me just give you a brief description , it's a type of exams where you have to do a presentation for 20 minutes in front of your professors and doctors.
Since we're talking about medical school, material for the presentation are cases we have studied this year. In total there are 31 cases. Every case tells different stories, in which you're pretending to be a doctor. You have to list the problem, your diagnosis, treatment and blablabla.

I remember my SOOCA during my 1st year, we have like 5-7 cases, i still remember clearly the feeling, the stress, the pressure, the tingling sensation on my stomach, the lack of sleep, the sweaty palms and sole, the rush of adrenalin, and finally the brokedown. Icried the night before my exam.
Then when the day finally came, i remember sitting in the waiting room with my friends waiting our names called. The pale faces, the "good luck" smiles. Then when our names finally called, we walked as a group to another room, the isolation room. Here, we finally know which case we got. 20 minutes, it's all we got to prepare for the presentation. After that, you go to another room, and the presentation begun.

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-dan gw jadi deg2an gara2 mikirin ini. SH*T.

Just hoping i'll get a good score , i hope an A . I REALLY DO HOPE . (praying)
say hello to my dearest ;) : *sukses ya semua SOOCAnyaaa!!*

my -not so- new post

2009-04-30T04:04:00.000-07:00

owkay, my first post.
(errr... not exactly my 1st,anyway. I've had blogs before, maybe 4-6 blogs, which i don't know where they are now. haha. sorry)

I start blogging again, with high hopes that i will stay loyal to this one ( I REALLY DO HOPE), but who knows, time will tell ;) . I knew i always have this urge to write, and yes i was right. I'm a type of person who tells story :D

ok then, i'll write something soon, promise you. I'm really really really freakishly tired now.... and i haven't take a bath (it's 6 p.m now, and you must think i'm disgusting -which in fact is abolutely true. me with my gluey hair , eww-)

and yes, i'm crazy with the YEAH YEAH YEAHS new album "It's Blitz!".
Karen O is falling in love - i'm just being a smartass here, guessing- , the songs are awesomes!! hear them out.

hugs!